Relationship Conversation: I Never Thought I would Feel this Way

I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD FEEL THIS WAY BUT THIS FEELS SO AMAZING

Gushing so much I had to let it all out.

Met this guy a while ago. At first, it had a normal conversation. Months later we started hanging out and every time gets much better. Yesterday he came to see me and we talked and laughed for hours. We held hands for hours too and couldn’t keep our hands off each other.

We hugged and made out so much, I felt so safe in his arms. The way he caressed and kissed me, told me how much he cares for me and loves me, complementing me a lot, that felt so amazing.

We ended up lying on the grass, cuddling and watching the sky. My legs were feeling a bit tired from using them all day so he carried me for some time. Everything felt so natural, I felt loved, and he felt loved.

Every time we spend together is always so great. I never thought I would feel this way again and I never thought this would happen with him. Even though things are different from the past and I am nervous for what is come, I will always be grateful that I shared this beautiful moment with him. I think I’m slowly falling in love with him and he is too.

I hope this lasts forever because I have no idea when I will be ready to try again if this particular one eventually fails. Because of everything that has happened to me in the past, I felt like I would never be ready again, but this very one took me unaware and I’m enjoying the feelings.

For a very long time I’ve not had any positive thoughts because I’ve had no positive situation. You won’t understand how hard it is to see others (friends, family, etc) enjoying their time with their partners when I can’t get into one relationship even though I’ve given my best. Do you now understand why I want this very one to last forever?
Thanks for your time!